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Saturday, June 8th, 2002
1:33 am - Just read my note to self, after my episode with the paracetamol. Freaks me out
This is what it read:

Hey guys

Ive obviously suceeeded in my long quest of finaly dying, as you are reading this. I just wanna
let you know that im sorry. I have to do this. Its my life and i can end it when i want. Just
think you dont have to do shit for me now. I depend on no one but god. Tho short, my life was nice.
Tho shit my life was made better by those of you who cared. Craig, Johnny, James, jenny, laura.
Sorry any one ive left out I just dont have too long. Sorry mum, the only reason i lived as
long was because of you. Ive just realised that this life is not what i want. I wanna sit by
jesus and explain to him why this world should no longer be allowed to exsist. Ill get you all
off the hook, i swear. When no one but you believes, its hard to think no one else will get in
to heaven. Dont worry you'lll be with me soon. Ill get the first pint in Craig and johnny. We'll
celebrate the end of all. You'll all be proud of me. Ill bring peace. When have we ever had peace.
Ill tell God it has to stop. Fucking palestine. What the hell are they doing? Just omg, Stop it all
now.

Sorry Rick, we were just getting close. Youll see me in heaven though. Ill explain it all some day.
Sorry Liam, You were slowly becoming bearable... Tell that girl friend of yours that shes cool too.
Again, sorry mum, You will see though, you will see. Th end is nigh and all will be better. Youll see.

I die now, not so i can escape, but so i can allow you to escape. This sick game of God's must end.
He will feel the pain that we do, and he will understand. Thats all i can say. Im So Sorry every one.
But you will see. This feeling of dispare is never wearing out. He will see, and so will you. Im sorry.

Its colder then it ourght to be in march. The people here are asking after you. The day is freash.
Im coming home again. Im coming home. I love you all.

I love you all so much, thats why i do what i do.

Paul Flanagan.

Fuck man, that sucks. How gone was i?

current mood: discontent
current music: Blink :- What went wrong

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Friday, June 7th, 2002
11:44 pm - Again with Jonny drinking whiskey :)

17

I act like I'm 17.
This test was brought to you by Melissa - No, really.... Take it here.



current mood: apathetic
current music: Dashboard Confessional - Again i Go unoticed

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11:31 pm - The entrance
Hey my best friend just invited me to Live Journal, so now you can all hear from me, Thanks Dream_box... You the man, dude

I look forward to letting you all deeper in to my soul.

Paul

current mood: drunk
current music: Dashboard Confessional, Sooo good

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